So i'm extremly excited to see my two sisters this up coming weekend! I haven't seen them in forever and it's about time for a reunion. Other exciting news is that today is mine and Jameson's 7 month anniversary. Last night he dropped me off and left for the city to visit with Zach and Jannie. An hour later he is at my door with tulips in hand. Not only was i happy about the fact he brought me my favorite flowers but also because that was the first time anyone had ever surprised me with giving me flowers for no reason at all. This past weekend has honestly been so good. I miss him already but if i get all my homework done i can see that smile once more before the weekend is over. Brandan and Chelle made potato's and steak on friday night and Jase and i picked up the movies and ice cream cake. Kind of akward situation though seeing as the person taking the order was my ex Andrew ....
I feel asleep on Jase watching final fantasy and he carried me up stairs to bed. He made me pancakes in the morning and we watched movies all day. The icecream cake was on the deck and by the time we saved it from the sun it had already turned to half soup. that didn't stop us from eating it though. we just put it in bowls lol. My mama dyed my hair today so i'm fresh and red agian
i cleaned my room today and threw out a bunch of things. though i still have my shelf of everything i've saved from past reltionships that i refuse to get rid of. I've got the locket from brendan, notes from Dj, the bottle cap from bo, the teddy and looly pop from matt, the jones soda bottle from garret, i can't remember what i saved from andrew but they all make me really happy because i've got tangible things, even as small as movie ticket stubs that help me never forget them. some people might think its weird... even creepy? but its honestly how i don't hurt as much when it ends. its like... if i have these things i can never convience myself that the relationship was all in my head. haha i dont' really know what this journal entry was trying to accomplish but it feels nice to just write with out thinking. just letting the first things that come to mind just dripple out. i hope some one read this, though i don't really know why they would. but if you did can you please just comment so i know thank you